Thursday, March 31, 2005
i can't take it anymore. can i run away from everything? if i could, i would definitely do so.
yes, my life had not been perfect since the day i was born. but i had never imagine things would reach a stage that nearly drive me insane. i'm trying my best to be calm. if not, i would have shouted into the faces of people long time ago. i had never been this miserable. why would this be happening to me? maybe it's retribution. i had made people's life miserable and now it's my turn. and thanks claaar for bothering to read my sms and console me(in a way). it really helped. =) couldn't do without a friend like you.
last night slept at 2am. rather this morning. was feeling very very terrible in school this morning. came home straight after school and slept on the table while eating my lunch. mom woke me up and asked me to finish lunch before taking a nap. but had to do history project. so didn't take a nap before piano teacher comes. am really tired now. and tomorrow is sports day. don't feel like going. but i can't be bothered to skip it. so i shall just drag myself there. futhermore, i'll be able to disturb jing ying.
i'm still feeling depressed and irritated and frustrated. wish i could talk to someone about it. but claaar is having history test tomorrow and that goes the same to sherrie. sighh. at least that sms that i sent to claaar helps a lot. oh well, i shan't think that much. just take one day at a time and i know there's always someone i can turn to.
really hope the days can pass faster so that i can go back to Canada sooner for holiday. i wouldn't dream of going back there permanently. will definitely miss all my friends here. especially all my close friends. =)[58 more days to Canada]
whee. 58. before i know it, it will become 40+. and i just saw the flight details. despite the long hours, i'm still very excited.
vicki the SEXY sunshine loves you!
9:26 AM